I had a diary once. My boyfriend read it. So this feels weird. He will read this too. Anyway, to me this is a diary. I am not au fait with blogging at all. So this is a diary. I am not a luddite though.
Anway, I just thought it would be nice to collect my thoughts. I hope they will be intersting to someone somewhere, but I am not confident about that at all.
Mostly the need to write down my thoughts has come from me thinking too much about what others say or do towards me. There is not much outlet in my life for me to share that now. I have moved to a city that I don't like and I am struggling to meet people that I understand, or understtand me.
What's strange is that for the first time in my life, I have met Christians, that are proper Christians. I don't mind them thinking whatever they want to think. I don't mind any religion thinking whatever they want. As long as it does not infringe on my life. I don't want to be made to feel inferior or that i am lacking introspection because I choose not to believe in God or anything else. I don't need proof of God. I do not believe in God and I do not want to believe in God. That seems to make as much sense as other people choosing to believe and wanting to believe. Most of all, and I know this is a small minority of religious people, I don't want to be converted. I most definitely do not want to be converted to anything. My faith or lack of faith is not on the table. I have considered the options for belief systems. The one that I have chosen is not because I can't be bothered to think about bigger matters, and it is not because I am not introspective. I am. I decide my own morals and this requires a lot of thought and introspection.
I had a diary once. My boyfriend read it. So this feels weird. He will read this too. Anyway, to me this is a diary. I am not au fait with blogging at all. So this is a diary. I am not a luddite though.
Anway, I just thought it would be nice to collect my thoughts. I hope they will be intersting to someone somewhere, but I am not confident about that at all.
Mostly the need to write down my thoughts has come from me thinking too much about what others say or do towards me. There is not much outlet in my life for me to share that now. I have moved to a city that I don't like and I am struggling to meet people that I understand, or understand me.
What's strange is that for the first time in my life, I have met Christians, that are proper Christians. I don't mind them thinking whatever they want to think. I don't mind any religion thinking whatever they want. As long as it does not infringe on my life. I don't want to be made to feel inferior or that I am lacking introspection because I choose not to believe in God or anything else. I am not lacking in religious beliefs because I need proof of God. I do not believe in God and I do not want to believe in God. That seems to make as much sense as other people choosing to believe and wanting to believe. Most of all, and I know this is a small minority of religious people, I don't want to be converted. I most definitely do not want to be converted to anything. My faith or lack of faith is not on the table. I have considered the options for belief systems. The one that I have chosen is not because I can't be bothered to think about bigger matters, and it is not because I am not introspective. I am. I decide my own morals and this requires a lot of thought and introspection. I have a belief system that is just as valid and has just as much right to exist as the other ones out there.
I have never been bothered by religion before now. It's so strange to have to account for myself.
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